He is god's little reminder for me

I am writing this post to remind myself that today I am moving on -> Bye bye moping around and feeling sorry for myself me. Hello new optimistic and self-disciplined me :D

Such a shame that we're so similar, yet we're so different *I know it contradicts...*

我只想要一個可以和我分享喜與悲的人...為什麼這麼難?

I can just hear him saying to me 'Why are you wasting so much time thinking about these things? What is the point of thinking about these things? Look at the bigger picture. These things are so minor and unimportant. Stop being so neurotic.' <-- yes he called me neurotic, because I care too much about how other people feel about me.

He's making me doubt who I am. He said love songs are unimportant and a waste of time. He said Jay Chow's lyrics are all useless because it's all about love. Am I born to be a time-waster who appreciate the sweet sounds of music with meaningful lyrics that are so beautiful, they can make me cry because they remind me of the feelings that I once had before my heart shattered into pieces? Or is he running away from things that can remind him of the pain... *he doesn't even understand the lyrics* I would never know.

He is very right though. However much I enjoy Jay's lyrics, I should not reminisce too much about the past. What has gone is gone. Thinking and dwelling about it does not make it come back. I know what I want and all I can do is pray that I will meet someone who can give me what I want. I love how god arranged this meeting with someone to remind me that I have to improve myself and grow. *kinda like that 'Lick the lid of life' advert for Muller yoghurts - the old guy konking that younger guy's head with a spoon* He is right about how I should worry less about how people think about me.

Be confident, be sure of yourself and be less neurotic/paranoid.

I need to change. Starting from today I am CHANGED. *Yes, erm, I would like a new processor with max RAM and max hard-drive please, because I need to install some new personality programs thanks!*

楊五門！！　抬起你的頭來！！