It's been a while

I know I probably should go to sleep but am just kept awake from all the happenings in my life.

What should we do when everything goes wrong in your life?

I keep telling myself that as long as everyone I love is alive and well, that everyone I love is happy, I am willing to give up the one thing that makes me happiest.

You'd expect everyone I love must have olympic athlete fitness by now, but they are not well, nor are they happy.

Then how can I justify my bad luck with this one thing that makes me happiest?

How much misfortunes does someone have to endure to finally be allowed their happiness?

I'm having difficulties carrying on on my own.

Not sure about anything anymore... why am I still studying? What's the point of having lots of money if I will never have my own family?