Grrr

Had another bloody tiring day, I think I now know why being a sales assistant is indeed a very physical job because after standing for the whole day today in pretty but terribly uncomfortable shoes (please, I've only gone for the flat ones), I cannot feel either of my big toes and both feet are swollen. Also, I found that when it comes to clinical etiquette between students, it appears that you have to be vicious and recklessly disregard any feelings of your colleagues of the same level in order to shine. Yes, the word is to SHINE and STAND OUT. This means removing all the things that may obstruct you as well as stepping on anything that you can find to appear more intelligent and charismatic - i.e. your colleagues of the same level! What the hell is her effing problem?? All I have done today was be nice to her, tell her where things are happening so she won't be stuck upstairs watching patients' lie in their beds all day. So how does she repay me? Well, by making me feel this small --> .

Is it necessary to tell me 'Oh, you should do it systematically' in front of the patient while I was doing an abdo exam - when I knew what I was doing? Does she understand that I do things MY way and I'm not a photocopied version of Janet Porter? Then, when the SHO asked ME a question (he wasn't even looking at her), could you at least give me a little bit of time before blurting out the answer within 0.05s after he finished the question directed at me? (she doesn't answer the hard ones when they are directed at me - which again make me look like an imbecile again) It is my own fault I guess, for not being confident enough - which originates from both lack of knowledge and the fear of giving answers that suggests I have sub-normal intellectual capacity.

Heh, it's so frustrating. I do not fear though - you just wait biaaaatch! *clicking fingers and moving head side to side* I'm a very simple person - how you treat me will be how I treat you my dear mwahahahaha (*shakes head* not sure when I can become confident enough...)