Opening my mind with a breath of fresh air

How do you see life?

Do you see life now as you saw it when you were 10? 15? 20? 25?? (if you are that old...)

Throughout your life, you will develop and grow in the way you handle situations, people and emotions. Have you ever felt that it is impossible to deal with these problems and find yourself running away from them or just hide away like an ostrich *what you can't see is not there*?

I never have thought that one day, someone is going to show me the way.

I am starting to understand how all feelings can change in an instant. Everything looks different because you have found the explanation that you have been searching for.

Yes I do reminisce, because those were the beautiful times I treasure and loved with all my heart. I reminisce that *hopefully* at one point or another that the love we had for each other was real. However, reminiscing the good times comes with a price - the reminder of all the heartache when it all ended.

I never would have believed it myself, but when you are in love your vision is compromised to the point where you only selectively 'see'. I finally saw who they really are when we reverted back to friends and this is the point where the mist in my eyes are lifted. I can finally let go.

Today, someone made me realise what I have been doing wrong in the past. Someone who just gave me an answer to something that has been troubling me for the past 7 years *though I can't pin-point on what it is exactly until today - I now know*.

It is truly amazing how things do work out at the end, however long the wait is.

How am I suppose to think Mr.11+ is just a crush when so far I have not found one thing that disgust me as a person? Dammit! *I hope it's not the mist...let the sun shine so I can see clearer*