Expectation Vs Desire

When the mist is gone, everything seems to be clearer.

I am starting to realise what was meant by expectations.

Everyone knows what can make them happy, be it shopping/ cars/ getting straight As/ football etc etc... I know what makes me happy. Therefore is it wrong to want that thing that can make you happy?

It is rather unfortunate because what makes me happy depends on another person, who has a mind of their own. I wish other things can fill this empty space with happiness but it is just not the same.

This is when expectation comes into this blog entry. What I want becomes an expectation, an expectation that can only be achieved by, well, really, another me frankly. I am the only person who knows what I want and meet my expectations. When these expectations are not reached, I will be unhappy. This vicious circle goes on, and on, and every time it repeats, it is slowly eating away the bond that took so long to build.

I think I realise what is wrong now.

I should expect less, which also means that I should give up what I want?

Here's the dilemma - giving up what you want means that you are admitting to defeat, you lose motivation and some very important points in life that has kept you going for so long...

Oh dear, I need to stop thinking about this or I think I will go mad.

Help!! p(>_<)q