Hmmm...
Yup, I'm so inspired I can only put 'Hmmm....' as the title.
Oh well, this is how I feel. I find this as a coping mechanism for times when I feel down - writing useless things on my blog... it's kinda like the pensieve Dumbledore has. Hopefully one day I can read this and laugh at how silly I was.
Life is boring at the moment. I love my highs and I hate my lows (I'm sure you know what I mean if you have been reading this blog long enough). But at the moment, I'm just in the middle... got nothing to be sad about (try to tell myself life is not that bad... which it isn't - could be better tho) and got nothing to be happy about either. So should I be happy that I'm feeling NOTHING at the moment? It seems as though I'm never happy. When I am happy, I'll worry about when the happiness will disappear. When I am sad, I'll wollow and think there's no tomorrow. At the present time I am feeling nothing and I am still down.
So what makes me happy? Haha, deep down I know james!, and I'm sure you know too...
Am I really like a book? :P Scorpios are supposed to be sexy and secretive...
Yes, I am talking to my invisible friend (ie myself) - and okay BBB you can diagnose me with some sort of mental disorder so I have an excuse to do badly in my exam.
1 comment:
hmmmmm cyclothymia probably might fit? not borderline, you'd have to show two extremes and no in betweens but they do have chronic feelings of emptiness.
post traumatic stress disorder? hehe
it's probably a combination of factors of having gone through a few "situations" which weren't so nice and not exactly resolved too well. there is no closure I suppose.
the one thing we as human beings need in order to get on with our lives is closure. a definite end or close to something that is important to us. a satisfactory conclusion. somesort of conclusion. the human condition: we always need to know how it ends and we always have to have a rather definite ending. leaving something halfway just drives us up the wall and leaves us at a bad place after.
BBB
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